mia didn’t quite slept through, last night.as a result, today, ted and i, woke up feeling very groggy! it felt like, she was back to the days, when she was a baby, crying all night long. we were woken up by her tossing and turning, and end up crying at 4 in the morning. i felt her body, and it was warm.that’s it, the fever is back!
she was unwell on monday night, but was OK the next day, but last night, it came back.it didn’t help that besides fever, she’s also having a running nose and a slight dry cough. she cried her lungs out, until she vomitted on our bed.
i do not know what got into me last night, but i was very frustrated and had so much anger to my little girl.i guess, it was because just few nights ago, i changed to a new bedsheets, pillowcase and comforter, and to know, i have to do it all over again, because she throw-up on our bed (and also on her bed too) . of late, the weather is gloomy, and that makes it even harder for our dirty sheets to dry up fast. more pending undry, unclean clothes for me to take care of.
i was so mad, that i decided to ignored her, and quickly clean up the mess, and just left her crying, while ted try to consoled her. i felt like a bad mother, who didn’t have the patient to tolerate with her (what more, she was unwell) . i took few minutes off, before i came back and hug her tightly, and felt so ashamed of myself (with a HUGE guilt too!!) , for treating her the way i do. this is totally not the way to handle a sick child.
somehow, i guess, mia could sense her mommy resentment, and gave me a hard look, macam merajuk gitu. that really broke my heart!
this morning, as we sent her off to the babysitter, she smiled. i felt a little ease, as to know, she’s fine now. oh dear Mia! mommy is very ashamed for losing my patience with you. i’ll promise to be more considerate, and never to lose out like that ever again!ever!
no matter what, you are the love of our life, and our most top priority.